*Contains topics that may be upsetting to some readers*
Everyone has a story and each of those stories holds significance and importance. Mental health is something that has become even more apparent during the times of lockdown we’ve faced throughout 2020 & 2021. So I thought it would only be fitting to share some stories with you all. It’s my absolute pleasure to share stories from Toby and Beth today. I hope that these stories bring light onto this topic, remind you, you’re not alone and that it’s okay to speak up.
– Words From Toby –
Anxiety sucks. Lets be honest, it is something that is so common. Some people know they struggle with it, some people don’t, and some people try to hide the fact it effects them.
For me personally, I was someone who knew about it, but hated the thought that there was something in me that needed to be dealt with, and I know that I’m not the only one. You may be reading this right now thinking that you’re just like me.
The first thing I would say is you’re going to be ok! Being anxious isn’t something you should feel ashamed about. You may be feeling like you’re backed into a cave and trapped, but while you’re in this cave, set a fire, sit down and chill out, and allow the warmth of Gods love to wash over you. What you’re feeling is a fear that you were never meant to deal with on your own. God didn’t design us to sit in this cave in the cold and dark alone.
Let’s take example of ‘The Parting of the Red Sea’ in Exodus. The Israelites were backed up against the sea and the Egyptians coming after them, but because of Moses’ faithfulness, God created an escape for them, and that’s available for you today.
God never promised us an easy run through of life, He never promised that there would be no obstacles, but what He did promise is that He would never leave you, nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5).
I don’t have a recipe or instruction manual to get away from Anxiety, but I have a loving Heavenly Father who takes my hand, smiles at me, and goes on the journey with me. And guess what, you can have the same.
Allow His warm embrace to comfort, hold and love you, and dive in deeper with the best companion you’ll ever ask for.
– Words From Beth –
Growing up I really struggled with depression. You wouldn’t have been able to tell though because I would put on a front. For me, my depression made me really numb and distance from my emotions. I was very self destructive, I struggled with self harm, smoking, drinking while talking to multiple guys because that’s all I thought I was worth. This was my lifestyle.
At Creation Fest one year I felt God say I needed to choose to live for Him as I had been living for other people. I knew I needed God but I didn’t want to admit it. Then this woman had a prophetic word for me and in this she mentioned my eating disorder, which I had never spoken about before. This word brought me clarity that God wanted to work through me. 2 weeks later I was at a festival called soul survivor, where in a moment I completely broke down I realised how much I needed God and my life was only going to get worse without Him.
I’m going to be completely honest, since then I have still had struggles with my mental health but I’m slowly finding different ways of handling it. The beginning of last year I spent the whole month in bed throwing up from anxiety which led me to go on anti-anxiety tablets which did help. I kept having seasons where I would get anxious and throw up. I took myself off the tablets and was slowly getting better.
When I arrived in Switzerland to do my DTS last month, I was really anxious and threw up for 3 nights. Then I started to write down verses in the Bible that talk about not being anxious and I would speak them over myself which I have actually helped me so much! I have “Even though..” tattooed on my wrist. So now whenever I feel anxious I look at it and quote to myself “even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil..” – Psalms 23:4. I have found this so helpful and it really brings me peace in those times.
God is really teaching me to trust Him. He has brought me so far. I have such a desire to support people going through anything like this. If there is anything I can help with or just to chat feel free to message me! I would love to share a bit more of my testimony and any way I can help.
A massive thank you to Toby and Beth for sharing their stories and pieces of advice. Please feel free to leave a comment down below or send us a message! We would love to hear from you and would love to know your story!